The unexpected reaction which leads to mistrust of self
I have just been reading over the abandonment page and in particular felt thought.
I have experienced abandonment issues as a child and as a 35 year old women am still struggling with them everyday. This felt thought and the issues around how deep abandonment is stored make it all so, so hard to heal. It's all very well studying mindfulness and positive behavior but sometimes I can just react to something in such a huge, overwhelming way and it will take me so long to heal my bruised insides afterwards. The worst thing is that because of this I can't trust myself. How can I when I am not sure when I am going to feel terrified and what will cause it?
Anyway,I am rambling! I just wanted to say how bloody hard it is to getb to the bottom of thse type of issues.
My concentration is all over the place, this is also explained in the Childhood Abandonment notes. I always try to keep an eye on everything that is happening which leads to lack of focus on just one thing....