still abandoned at 50
(Ft. Lauderdale, Fl)
I was abandoned at 11. Moved into foster home. The mother worked 3 jobs and the father was a teacher much loved by children. He was a wonderful man but beaten down by his dominant wife. She was a good role model for independence but always made you feel if your not working your lazy. She would give me my xmas presents in the basement so others in the family wouldn't see. When ever I needed something she would say "I wouldn't even do that for my own kids". She made me feel separate from everyone.
As the years went on she remodeled her house , new car etc. Even though they worked the state of Maine paid her more than my mother got for 3 kids and never gave more than birthdays or xmas. After being injured on the job and several back surgeries that failed I ended up on the street before the disability kicked in because they would not help me. I never showed empty handed when I visited. All was well when I was ok and they didn't have to lend a helping hand.
I've had to let these people go in my life. They have never been there for me and I know now never will. I'm not family. Trying to recover from giving money to biological brothers to once again be abandoned as to not pay me back. I'm angry and hurt. The only recourse I have to not let them in my life. I forgive them and pray for them but I still hurt because I didn't do anything to cause them to treat me this way. God help me.