September is National Recovery Month and the time of year where local and national organizations shine a spotlight on the addiction recovery movement in an ongoing effort to advocate their message of hope that recovery from addiction/alcoholism is possible. We are very fortunate to have some very dedicated advocates in our own community. I recently spoke with two individuals about the organizations they belonged to and the importance of their work.
I am an Adult of Child of an Alcoholic. For short, they use the term Adult Child or ACoA. The term "Adult Child" best reflects the responses we frequently engage in, namely fear and self doubt, when dealing with adult interactions. We question our self worth and many times feel disconnected from life.
There is also a list of Adult Children Syndrome characteristics from the ACA book that help many individuals evaluate their situation and determine if they have this particular syndrome. It is called the "laundry list." Below is a condensed version of that list taken from the Adult Children- Alcoholic/Dysfunctional Families book.Adult Children of Alcoholics and Other Dysfunctional Families
Most of these Adult Children Syndrome characteristics have an opposite that can also affect an Adult Child. For example we may feared authority figures -but then became an authority figure, possibly to our children, spouses or others. Most of my characteristics of being an Adult Child fell into this category.These behaviors form the "other laundry list" which includes:
It is very difficult for those with Adult Children Syndrome to give or receive love as we have not experienced healthy role modeling in this area. What we think is love or intimacy in reality is codependency or intensity. Many Adult Children drown out childhood of origin feelings through a variety of addictive and compulsive behaviors. Because of the alcoholism and dysfunction in my family I also turned to alcohol and other unhealthy coping mechanisms. I was sober many years before I was able to see and deal with these particular issues. I eventually knew that if I didn't address and work on these concerns that I would not be able to sustain a healthy marital relationship.
Taking an inward journey of this type is never an easy thing to do. It can be very painful going through the process of uncovering, discovering and discarding. Personally I used a combination of therapy and a 12-step process in order to do this. I have made great strides in healing the trauma and dysfunction from my past, but for me it is an ongoing process. The progress of healing is evidenced in my present day relationships and marriage.
Some of the obstacles in doing this type of work can be feelings of guilt associated with 'betraying' our parents as we explore how the dysfunction of our upbringing has impacted us. One of the first things we learn as we begin our journey is to understand the difference between blaming our parents and getting honest about the reality of our childhood experiences. Simple put, my mother (father was absent) did the best she could and she loved all of her children. That does not mean there was not dysfunction. There was. In recovery I learned how to continue the love for my mother, get honest about what happened, and take the necessary steps in order to heal from it. I eventually also experienced forgiveness towards my father for the abandonment.
I encourage anyone who feels they may be affected by Adult Children Syndrome, to research it further and experience the freedom that healing can bring. There is a profound quote that has stuck with me for many years and that being "Pain is inevitable - suffering is optional. There is hope and there is help."
Angie Carter, CRADC, SAP is a certified reciprocal alcohol and drug counselor and DOT certified Substance Abuse Professional. She is in private practice at Carter Counseling & Consulting Services. Angie sees local clients in office and is also available for telephone coaching and/or consultation. Click here to contact Angie with appointment requests, questions, or feedback.