My baby brother died when I was 18 months old (he was 4 mos. old )
I have abandonment issues. My little brother died when I was 18 month old. He was only 4 months old. My father was away on a trip and my mom was caring for us. He got pneumonia and died. I have not been able to identify any other traumatic events in my first seven years. I suspect that at this time when I needed her there for me she became emotionally absent due to his death. Perhaps she blamed herself. Both of my parents are dead. There is no one I can ask.
How can I help myself heal from something that happened when I was too young to remember?