Late Bloomer with Moderate Abandonment Issues
I felt connected with my mother when I was a little child, at around 10 years old and under. Once I hit my teens, I felt very neglected by both parents. My father was angry at me most of the time, and both my parents were workaholics. I was raised by several nannies who I could also not connect with emotionally.
In my teen years, I became very introverted. I would avoid socializing with people at all costs, except with a few buddies. I found it easier to communicate with people on the internet. I met my first girlfriend online and a lot of my socializing involved chatting with friends.
As I grew older, I developed a false self and along with it a false sense of confidence. I began externalizing my issues. I got angry for the first time in my life. I started blaming my parents and started abandoning people who I viewed as toxic.
I believe this stems from abandonment issues. I also believe both my parents were stuck in their false selves at one point. I know for a fact that both of them have issues with their fathers, although I never asked them about it. It could very well be that they have also been neglected by their parents.