I'm rock bottom
I've hit that rock bottom, and here I am. With a history riddled with almost every addiction in the list, I have gotten to the point where I don't really own anything any more and I am actually afraid to own anything because of the pain that is attached to having it taken away.
I have never recognized my abandonment of things as being a way of coping with my own childhood abandonment issues. I just felt like I couldn't trust the world to not take anything away from me and that was that.