Always been this way
This is BS. When I was born I was either happy or angry never an in between. (that's what my mom says anyway). Well I have a dad who worked most of the time and when I did see him he'd bust my chops for doing something stupid on accident. He'd spank me and sometimes he'd punch me. Once he accidentally hit my head on a desk when he was trying to spank me but it still hurt. Now I only feel anger. Sometimes it's depressed self loathing anger but usually I'm just furious or it's just under the surface. The us no limit to my rage and people don't seem to get that. The thing about it though is I love the anger and hatred I feel. The madder I am the stronger I am and the stronger I feel. Makes me good at football. But I can't express love and I don't really even remember feeling loved or accepting that I was loved. My dad's nicer now because he likes how I channel my rage into sports but it just never goes away. To top it off I was constantly picked on by idiots at school until 8th grade. I got really fat that year. That summer I ran 8 mile every day and dropped the weight. That fall I began weight lifting and the sophomore year I went out for football. Even though I have always had better grades than my 1 year younger sister she has always been my dad's favorite. She threw a rock at my head and she got yelled at. I bit her in retaliation to her biting me and I got spanked double what she got. In summery I have always had anger, now I just don't have happy so your theory is wacked out.