The past keeps coming back to haunt me.

by AFT
(Jefferson City MO)

I have been in recovery for a few months now. I have not gambled in a very long time. But just when things are looking good and I am starting to feel good about myself the past comes back to slap me back down.

I got a letter from the IRS stating that I owe over 7,000 in taxes for my gambling winnings 2 years ago. I thought that I had gave all the paper work to our tax person. It now appears that I did not and I will have to pay this. But thank god for a wonderfully supporting husband who will pay this for me. I am just so very upset that you can make mistakes and try to do the right thing and then all of a sudden it is right back in your face. However, my husband would not be so supportive if I continued to gamble.

I keep going to counseling and meetings but I am still struggling to reach my real connection with God. I am not sure if I can hold on to trying to reach complete happiness there are just so many issues in my past and now just when I think I have made progress it seems I have to start all over again.

Just wanted to share this with someone, anyone.