Starting to heal the abandonment wound - yey!

by RW
(California, USA)

I am 34 years old and have battled codependency, addictions, shame, social anxiety, suicidal thoughts, self mutilation and more. This site is wonderful in that it provides a nice understanding to how all these behaviors are linked. But beyond understanding the reasons alone, I've always wanted to know how to heal the wound.

I have gone through therapy, hypnosis, etc with little success. Perhaps others have had better luck with these solutions, but not me.

I took up vipassana meditation (taught by Goenka) almost 5 years ago and because of this technique, I have begun to recognize all my difficulties arise from the abandonment issues that started when I was 3 years old. The meditation is also helping me heal from the wounds and for the first time, life feels positive and I am beginning to feel some sense of self worth. I never thought feeling like this was possible...is this what healthy people feel?

I write this in the hope that other people know there are options for healing themselves. Not everyone will have the same path to healing...I suspect you'll have to investigate different ways till you find one that works for you. Please just have hope! I know if I can start healing so I can everyone else suffering from abandonment wounds. You WILL find your way home to your true and content self. Have faith.