Six Years Sober and Still Wanting to Drink

by Self Pity Patty
(Maryland)

Hi-have an unexpected day off today (too much time on my hands). I have been in recovery for six years after drinking for 25 years. I am in therapy and over the summer did EMDR for post traumatic stress. My sponsor, therapist and psychiatrist are all on vacation. My mother is a mentally ill, perpetually unavailable person that I cannot talk to about anything. There is really nothing in particular bothering me. I have a good job that I like (teacher), a husband that I love, a fairly stable financial situation, etc. I sponsor 2 women and go to 3 or 4 meetings a week. I pray twice a day minimum as well as working on the 10th step. So, why do I want to drink?