Perhaps I can help another.

There are those, too, who suffer from grave emotional and mental disorders. How many times I have heard this at AA? Now when I get called on to speak I quote page 133 of the Big Book:
"God has abundantly supplied this world with fine doctors, psychologists, and practitioners of various kinds. Do not hesitate to take your health problems to such persons." I mention that there are about 50 12step programs listed on Wikipedia, and when asked, I always mention Internet-of-the-mind.com

I have a 40year chip from AA in my pocket next to a 2year chip from SAA.

Father left when I was six, mother was a falling down drunk with whom I lived the next 10 years. From 6 to 8 the neighbor girls that took care of me liked to play hospital and touch my body. That was where I got my only attention. Is it any wonder that I grew up exposing myself when ever I felt stressed or abandoned? Not to shock but to offer myself for amusement. To be wanted and accepted.

A psychic change came about at the moment I was handcuffed in my own living room in front of my wife. My wife said I smiled as if I was happy.

Soon I will finish court ordered therapy & counseling but nothing has helped me as much as cognitive therapy and this web site. I also attend two SAA meetings each week.

Age 70. I told the judge that I want to get well before I die of old age.

Anonymous


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Congratulations! 40 yrs!!
by: Don

First of all congrats on 40 years sober! And the 2 years as well. Both are an incredible accomplishment!!

And thanks for having the courage and taking the time to share. I'm sure it will help others to know that recovery is not only possible but happening all around us.

As you know...sexual addictions carry the most stigma of all. And addiction is addiction is addiction...

But it can be very difficult to carry on a conversation between people who have acted out their woundedness on others & those who have been acted out upon.

Many times, not unexpectedly, anger comes out when the conversation takes that turn -- between internalizers and externalizers.

Keeping that in mind... I just want to ask everyone who reads this that we keep the discussion focused on recovery and safety for all... and if anger, abandonment, or shame gets triggered, know when to "walk away" (or in this case "click away") and get with someone from your support circle in recovery.

Having said all of that, I am wondering if you, anonymous, would care to write a little something about how in SAA they deal with the need to share your experience, strength & hope with others while simultaneously protecting the emotional safety of those within earshot who may have been abused.

I'm assuming it would be similar to the 9th step philosophy?

Don

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