Is this it?

We've been married for 20 years. We lived together for 4 years before that. He had several affairs but I forgave and moved on for the sake of our children. Now at 44 is this it?

I've come to realize he's got an addictive personality. If not extra marital sex, then internet, or cars, or something. I've dealt with depression all my life. I've finally got it under control only to realize that I'm angry, resentful, and feel that I've not bothered to pursue my goals. When he comes home he escapes to computer games, or internet.

Even though I'm a stay at home mom, I would like some support from him. I cook, clean house, take care of finances, maintain house, maintain his business finances, responsible for all laundry, kids homework. When I get mad that our teenage daughter needs to be responsible, he says that I create tension and bring everyone down in the family. I am a single mom in a marriage.

I wanted more and I feel time passing by. When I worked outside of the home, I was still responsible for all of the other duties. I couldn't physically do it all. He makes enough money, he just doesn't save it. When I try to talk to him about having weekly meetings, he avoids or forgets.

I am frustrated....surely there's something else in life? I don't want a divorce because of the impact of on our children. Besides we don't fight. We just get along. Time passes by as it does for all.