Ending this torment

by Lavera
(Hazlehurst, Georgia)

My 27 year old son is a recovering crack cocaine addict and an alcoholic. He has been in trouble with the law since he was 16. He has a job but no license and no vehicle. Over the years I have paid fines, bonds, lawyer fees, counseling and psychiatrists bills and nothing has helped.

No matter what he gets into it's always my fault. He has lived with me all his life and even though he has a job refuses to help pay any bills. He has started to get drunk again every Thursday when he gets paid. He has become more and more abusive to me over the years, emotionally and physically.

I finally put him out of the house about a week ago. I had to get a good behavior warrant because he thought I didn't have the right to put him out. He hates me but still thinks he can live in my house. We have a court date June 3rd. My question is why do I feel so guilty for putting him out? I know something had to be done or this would end tragically.