DEAR LITTLE KATHLEEN

by Kathleen D. Cone
(Phoenix Arizona, USA)

Law is the beginning of education, but the child in you has been taking things carelessly,yet very seriously all at the same time. I'm writing to you in hopes that you will try your best to listen to what your counselor tells you. She has already proven to you that she can open your broken heart & help to mend some of the damage, that even you had no idea was possible.

The current situation you find yourself in is a serious one. The medication you are taking is no laughing matter & this disorder in your inner person has shown you that you have no choice but to take life more seriously. But I must qualify what I mean by 'seriously'.

There is a need in your life for a certain measure of taking yourself in hand, & that means by strict discipline, but in a good way. It should never degenerate into a drill, because continuous drill has a humiliating effect & ends up crippling your own power. With this discipline must come fun and a measure of joy in your life.

Finally, you have found a way to accomplish something of great significance through art. An opportunity to use what you have experienced as a catalyst, that not many are able to achieve(& even if so) not to the degree you have become accomplished. This is something you can be very proud of. It is my opinion that you should continue in this discipline. It is a very good thing for you, because it brings you great joy!

Right now you feel you have no internal or external power, but you do have the strength of mind to bear this burden of responsibility for yourself & to tolerate with kindliness your own shortcomings & follies. The aim is inner strength with outer reserve, which will enable you to take on the responsibility of directing your own future & of finally maturing & accomplishing things of great meaning to you.

I think that it could be said you have, in many ways never really had individuality or you lost it somewhere along the way & have relied on others to tell you how to think, feel, or be, far too much, this has not served you well. You have also spent too much of your life in empty imaginings, unreal fantasies & unrealistic dreams, all of which have resulted in humiliation for you.

You may feel like what's happening to you is just another punishment, heaped on the pile of punishments you have experienced throughout your entire life, but I do think that this time around what appears to be punishing you, will result in restoring if not creating order in your life that you have never before experienced, & this is a very good thing.

As you are now learning an inexperienced or immature person who seeks instruction in a childlike & unassuming manner is on the right path to recovery, because when you empty yourself of arrogance & seek out a good teacher/counselor, this is the best way for you to learn how to help yourself.

I also think you have a long way to go yet, & encourage you not to lose heart, because this time around, I really believe you have a good chance of finally finding peace.

*With great love & compassion from the adult in you & your very best friend, Kathy