Crying on the Inside

by Elizabeth
(California)

I have been working with serious abandonment issues all of my life after my mother left my sisters, brother, and me in an orphanage and ran off to get married again. I was later adopted, but that is another story.

I had two children, one of them a girl. Once she was married, I lived with her and her husband a couple of times, helped take care of their two daughters, and, the last time paid their rent for about eight months. Since I left and stopped paying their rent, my daughter has refused to talk to me (her husband orchestrated the whole abandonment scenario), I am not permitted to see my grandchildren, and now they are moving to Israel without so much as a good-bye. I am starting to feel panicky and devastated.