AWAKENING

by KATHIE GRACE
(BALTIMORE MD)

Oh my God, this has helped me so much, I'm 58 years old. I am a christian, I believe God loves me, but obviously only when I felt like I was pleasing him. I got addicted to benzo's and pain medicine, I felt real anxiety and real pain, I just could not get off of these medicines completely. In fact I still take the benzo's and I was diagnosed as bi-polar, I take Lamictal, I've had very much sorrow and pain in my life from childhood till now. Just today I ask God to take me home, I'm tired.

There is so so much to say, I'm at work and don't have enough time. I lost all three of my full blooded siblings two at 46yrs old and 1 at 47. My 23 yr old daughter was murdered by a serial killer 14 yrs ago. My husband died during the murder trial. Oh God so so much pain. I don't know how I'm still alive. I do need help, I know God loves me and he will help me. Thank you so much for this forum. God bless you, I've been living with my false self all these years. Now I think my heavenly father wants me to be me.