Another abandonment issue,from a 70 year old.
Hi, I am 71 and now realize why my life has been so painful. I was constantly abandoned by my mother, for months at a time, she would go on road trips with her single friends. My mother became single again when she divorced my father, I was two. My father married soon after and started a new family. I was abandoned in the home of my grandfather,an alcoholic. A lady barely able to function was given a place to live while becoming my caretaker. I bathed and cared for her. Hello and goodbye Mr and Mrs were the only conversations in the household. I now wonder how I learned to speak English. I was recently discarded by a man I had fully trusted, he ran off with a person with BPD, I know that he is in serious trouble with longevity. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, I am beyond anxious for his/their life. I now know that my mother, my husband,now deceased,and this relationship partner of 15 years are all narcissistic is one form or another. I also know that I am co-dependent. I have joined CODA, but much more is needed as I have been studying for over a year and I do see the light. I wish I could see the light at the end of my tunnel with relief of this pain of devaluation and discarding. I believe that I am now in the middle of a drama triangle. I have no contact with him, she finds me when she wants to tell me of her abuse by him. I know that she is abusing him. I am beginning to isolate myself trying to get away from the pain of rejection again! I believe that I have become obsessed with their well being, this must be like an addiction. I have had a normal life, raised children, a good job, responsible but not any good at making relationship decisions.